i wish i could hold you tonight
fill our emptiness with silent warmth
i wish i could hold your hand
let my lips touch your palms,
let my palms say all my lips can’t
i wish i could hold you tonight
the spaces between our fingers none
let my arms be your home
your body would find
in the dark
i wish i could hold you tonight
my shoulders are your tears’
to fall on, to fill
i wish i could hold you tonight
even just for tonight
I love you so much and I will never forgive myself for losing you.
I was so busy staring at the broken pieces of me he left when he walked out that I did not notice those who love me cutting themselves picking up my sharp edges.
I want to do everything we used to do together alone.
I want to reclaim as mine what used to be ours.
You told me that I love you too much.
All I heard was,
“I am afraid I can not love you as much.”
One day, someone will calm and tame all your demons.
One day, someone’s voice will silence all the voices in your head.
One day, someone will see your scars and still think you’re a
beautiful soul.
Or maybe, one day you’d realize no one ever will.
But:
Someone will come to welcome all your demons as theirs.
Someone will come and even though they cannot silence all the
other voices, they will remind you to listen to theirs: that you are
loved and worthy.
Someone will come and ask you to stop giving yourself scars, but
will remind you in case you find it hard, that your pain is theirs and
so are your tears and dark days.
Maybe for now you to listen to the beats of your own silence.
Maybe for now you have to mend yourself.
Maybe now is the time you truly understand – you can no longer
rely your salvation on someone else’s willing soul.
It has to be your own.
This Side of The Road 